I am currently 25 weeks 1 day pregnant today, we already know that it is a boy and honestly couldn't be any happier about it. I did have that motherly intuition about the gender this time, only because this pregnancy has been completely different. It has been a lot easier in some aspects but a lot harder in others. I still hate being pregnant regardless, but enjoy knowing that I'm carrying a sweet life inside of me and it makes all the aches and pains of pregnancy go away for the moment.
Symptoms: Well, I'm still on Diclectin and will probably stay on it the duration of my pregnancy. I have tried weaning from it, but get extremely sick and vomit like nobodies business!! With Cadence I was on it from week 6 of my pregnancy til the 14th week and weaned no problem, but with this one the nausea is just extreme if I don't take my pills. I am only taking 2 at night and it's been helping out tremendously. I have also been extremely tired this pregnancy, it got worse like 2 weeks ago. I had a couple of good weeks where I had energy and now it's gone. I am hoping it returns and I'm sure it will once I'm done working.
My last day of work is November 30 and I'm literally counting down the days! (26 more working days and counting). I've had a rougher time this pregnancy in regards to working. And I know it's because when I come home from work the work continues until Cadence is in bed and then I have to clean the house up after that little tornado of a child! Being a working pregnant mother is awful and it definately shows in my work. I don't have energy to do anything I used to do at work, and I feel the tension of all the other nurses noticing me not working like I used to. It just sucks and I'm totally done!
I have also been an emotional, moody, depressed wreck this entire pregnancy. My poor husband is a trooper and I'm glad he understands. I've also had little to no patience in regards to Cadence. I feel extremely guilty for the way I treat her, but it's like I turn into THE HULK and go on my rampage and don't remember JACK when I get out of my emotional rage! I am so done with my pregnancy and the way it's hijacked my hormones and turned me into a complete monster.. For once can I have a pregnancy that I enjoy? Is that too much to ask for? Ha ha ha.
It's also starting to hit me that I'm going to have another baby and I'll have 2 kids to take care of. I'm really scared and I fear I won't be able to handle the demands of a 2 year old and a newborn. My anxiety is through the roof. I'm sure I'll do fine and I'm sure everybody who has 2 + kids has thought these things.
Labour and Delivery Plans:
Yes I'm already thinking and preparing myself for this wonderful day. I did Hypnobirthing with Cadence and did extremely well considering my circumstances! But as soon as I found out I was pregnant with this little guy I knew I did not want an OB/GYN (as they pushed induction on me hardcore, and I felt I had no choice in the matter), so I am seeing Dr. Terry Smith (GP) here in Raymond and plan on delivering in the Raymond Hospital. There is no talk of induction and there is no such thing as an epidural at this Hospital, which is what I wanted! I was really wanting a homebirth with a midwife, but our region doesn't have any Registered Nurse Midwives and I cannot afford the cost of a lay midwife. I'll just stick with my Hypnobirthing training and labour most of my labour at home and when I feel the need to move to the hospital, I will. My husband is also a great birthing companion and I couldn't ask for a better coach! He helped me relax so much when I was in labour with Cadence. I felt little to no pain during the opening phases of labour and got myself to 6cm dilated and it didn't even feel like I was in labour. I know this method works and I'll make it work this time too. I am so excited for the Birthing Day! Anywho that's enough for now.
I'll do a separate post about Cadence, but not today. Ciao!! OH ya and here is a picture of me at 25 weeks pregnant!!
